Regrets?

Valarissa sat in bed, tossing and turning, unable to clear her mind and drift to sleep. What had she done? Here she was, in low-sec space, roaming around with outlaws, pirates, and, as hard as it was to admit, murderers. Tears began to form in her eyes as she thought back to her parents, and her life before war had struck her homeworld. She wiped the tears from her eyes muttering, "Venom would rag on me if she saw me acting like this..." To think, crying over what was? It was soft... it wasn't even remotely acceptable for someone who had done the things she had.

She had killed people! She had scrambled a capsule's warp drive systems, webbed them, demanded money, and then proceeded to kill them in cold blood when they refused to pay! Sure, the capsuleer's consciousness lived on in a new clone, but it didn't stop the fact that she had murdered that person in cold blood.

She even had a bounty on her head to show for it too. 1,005,000 Interstellar Kredits. Was that what a life was worth? Was that what HER life was worth?

Thinking back to her parents again, Val couldn't help feel shame at what she was doing now. Her parents had done everything in their power to bring about change in a non-violent way. And here she was, Val, a Hellcat, roaming around, destroying ships and killing for money. Just another pirate in a band of murderers.

And yet, she couldn't help to think about how kind these women were. The members of the Bastards were top rate too. All of them lived such vibrant lives (many of them more than one life due to a few too many run ins with "pod malfunction." They all were such kind-natured individuals, just trying to survive in their own corner of space. Hunted down by CONCORD, hated by the corporations that would turn this area of space into their dust for their material gain.

It was for this reason, Val, remembered, that she joined. It wasn't about the money, it was about making a life for yourself. It was about finding a way to survive, even if it meant spitting in the eye of an entity much larger than yourself.

That was why she became a pirate. She drifted off to sleep only moments later with one last thought drifting through her head:

"But hey... the pay's damn good too."